Location:
Belfast, Co ANTRIM
Date:
Sat Sept 23, 2000 2:11:29pm
Referred By:
Just Surfed On In
Wrote...
I used to have a recurring dream about being an eleven year old boy, in the house where a woman looked after me while mum was at work. In the dream i always got put over the woman's lap, got my trousers and pants pulled down infront of her daughter and her mate (a girl) and being spanked. Sometimes the dreams would start by me already over the woman's lap, then the pants being taken down, on few occasions, the pants are already down and i am being spanked. I always feel that i could be spanked with my backside left covered. Delving into the my past and going into detail about it with physcyatrists, and about what happened to me and the poor me's brought this about. I also would not face reality of situation, and just wingged at physicyatrists, wasting their time and my own. I also went on that i would not do various things until Ireland was united, or move towards a united Ireland occured. This self will started at eleven. I did get on peoples nerves at this age, with my self will and the Ireland obsecion. With one physicycatrist, i came to the conclusion that the problems i had were due to a divided Ireland, and other environmental situaions that were beyond my control, and desires. I also started all that untill an environment was the way i wanted it at 11, i would not play ball as a figure of speech. The more i endulgded in this behavior the more the recurring dreams occured. One day i said to my self, i am living with things as they are, and to hell weither Ireland is divided or united. I will do the things that need doing. The dreams warned me of the danger i was in, that i was blind to. In my life the political situation of Ireland is mighter than me. In the dream the adult is mightier than the child (myself), she desides the punishment, and were it will be held. In these dreams my desire would be to be spanked, without being looked at and my behind covered, but i am taken infront of two girls, pants pulled down, and the humiliation. I can get the good points out of my environment. In this personal change and accectance, i had dreams about spanking children, over their clothes and being happily married. The Ireland obsecion was sooner or later going to lead to danger. The child of 11 my self, in the leaning over the lap and no control is representitive of me handing my life over to other people, i.e the phycyatrists.